Road to Poverty

Ah goodness, I'm still dizzy from clicking on that Buy button for Luna Sea's Mafuyu & Manatsu DVD combo. Don't you just hate unplanned shopping? There goes the small hope I harbored for a Fossil wristwatch. *chucks dream out the window*

I do so really hope that my money's not going to fly out the door in November. Oh crap! Won't November be the time when Luna Sea concert goods are announced? Ngghh! *clutches keyboard and chews on it*

Well this might be a good start for a... hmm, a priority list to fit my budget? My head's a mess with the upcoming Wonder Girls concert, KinKi concert, Seoul trip, Dongwan's album plus God knows what else I have to pay for by February.

Furthermore, there is still no news from Public Bank on my card application. Was my letter lost somewhere? Guh. *spits out crushed numeric keys*

So registering for Sugizo's fanclub [Soul's Mate] is definitely out of the question. Eventhough it is only about RM200, it's kinda useless since I won't be able to enjoy the benefits other than getting access to his Fans-Only site. Sucky uptight rule of no shipping to non-JP addresses.

Sigh. My year is really going down the drain after the awesome weeks of August and September. The stress I'm going through with all the money problems and work. Honestly... How do people adapt to change so well? It's really impossible for me to accept this kind of pressure, of suddenly being thrust in front of the shooting squad.

I hate management. I hate being the Alpha. I'm an Omega and people like me can't make it and break it like some others do. But why am I still heeere? *kicks self outta orbit*

=____= Fark. Instead of listing out my job scope like my boss asked me to, I'm going to rewatch Goong because I don't fucking care about my career right now.

Oh Noooez

Since Koichi's SHOCK habis semalam and he'll be focusing on KinKi and his solo tour next.... I may have to save money for his concert merchandise! (No folders nor booklets for me, I have my sight on keychains/phone dangles)

WHY ARE YOU BOMBARDING THIS TO ME ALL AT THE SAME TIME?? >_<

Yeaaah I complained about them not releasing anything. Now I'm complaining because they're releasing too many expenssssive things when I have other obligations too!

Plus, Seoul Trip and Japan Trip?! Dirt cheap prices that makes more possibilities of me going there to watch butai., right? Riiiight?

I don't know any rich guys. Hurrrr.

... My previous posts have been only about money. That is. So. SAD.

What Was That About Bankruptcy?

This morning there was a plan to blog about August almost becoming my best month of 2010 because of KinKi Kids' concert DVD and Luna Sea's important surprise.

Yeah my mood's all gone thanks to Koichi. Fuckin' kill me twice, why don't you? *flicks middle finger eventhough I still love him*

As if releasing your new album on September 1st (21 days) right after KinKi con DVD' release isn't enough of a blow to me...

You just had to package it oh so fucking nicely in THREE friggin' different versions that altogether costs nearly RM600, eyh? *breaks down and cries*

To all my dearest friends if you care about me at all, pleeeease start nagging my online clothes-shopping habit. I need to make sure I can at least afford to buy the First Release Limited Edition. T___T

Reluctant to Sleep

I don't wanna go to work today to settle that KFC superbanner issue! Argh. This is just one of those times when I hate my job. Suck it up and get over it. SUCK IT UP AND GET OVER IT. Hm. Let's see how long I can handle the shit. =__=

Braindead. Gonna watch Unubore Deka now.

50 seconds into the show. I think my 'gaze sensor' is broken. Well beyond repair. Yeah, yeah, so I'm commitment phobic. W-w-w-wait. What the hell does this particular sensor have anything to do with commitment? Nevermind... Brain. Too. Dead.

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New X song?!

You know that I'd never pass out on a chance to bash Hollywood-esque X Japan, right? Fufufu.

Numerous cancellations of globalwide concerts - Check.
Endless slew of PV retakes (with Sugizo, of course) singing old songs - Check.
Horrible decision to enlist for Lolla-for-losers - Check.
Continued disgrace of their legendary name - Check.

Now here's the music video recording from yesterday for their 2nd new song after what... 2 years since the 'comeback'.

Idk. Doesn't "Born To Be Free" sound extremely cliche to you? Good grief.

HEDFUC: Part 2

So fucked up and honestly tired I can't even remember what I wanted to write even after having thought of something just 10 minutes ago.

Sugizo's soundtrack grounds me therefore I'm going to bed listening to the strains of his beautiful music. Oh yes, I still have enough energy to spazz about him :P

Merengus Dek Kebudusan

Looks like I ain't gonna be able to go for Seoul as well. I have to start paying for both Celcom and TM broadbands now. Still 8 months to go for Celcom contract to end. Goodbye, money.
Wish it was easier to maintain just Celcom but might I add that... CELCOM FUCKING SUCKS so I'm pretty much resigned to wait for my idiotic sibling to move out asap. Therefore I can utilise Stupidmyx to download all those KinKi, Yara, SCP and TsuKoi files in my backburner list. -_-

Why is today only Wednesday?! Hurry up to weekend, please~ Aku tak sabar nak lepak at GSC MV for two days straight. Bermalam underneath the escalators. Kekekeke. Dear Doctor is good, although the dead silence of the media and press during yesterday's opening launch kinda got me openly aware of every little sound I make. Tak dapek den nak enjoy citer nye. Also, I will appreciate an International Screen movie more if my stomach tak kosong. -_-

And Sugizo's back in LA? I thought he was still brooding in his Tokyo studio. Why lar that guy flying around without notifying anyone. -_-

The few points from today that berjaya make me smile are Brian's VIP seats (I'm guessing 2nd or 3rd row behind VVIP area) and CPS' Beretta releasing earlier. Hello, CDJapan. Any sign of my singles coming anytime soon?

HEDFUC (by FAKE?)

Wonderful. My iPod chose to die after such a long and tiring day -- which triggered a chain of WTF-ness that started with such an 'eventful' ride home that had my mood going from tired to outspoken bitchy. If only Sugi-chan's battery hadn't been used up due to Pinball Ride Ultimate, I wouldn't have suffered through torture tonight.

Anyway as I was leaving the office, I knew that something weird was about to happen. That awful feeling down the pit of my stomach was actually a signal for my day to end badly. Adalah pulak sorang mamat ni dalam LRT, wanted to go all chatty with me out of the blue. I thought, "Oh great. Of all people, you decide to talk to me? Me! The one who doesn't even like to talk to strangers."

Usually when some people tegur me, I will smile and nod and then feign disinterest and that other person will get the picture, ya know? This dude?! It was so obvious dia nak mengorat because his questions were "Keje kat mana?" and "Nama apa?" and "Tinggal dekat mana?"

By right, normal friendly strangers won't even ask that lah~ hello! When I didn't want to divulge the info I consider personal (especially without reason), I told him that I had a busy day so I'm not open for a discussion but then he went and got all accusatory and said something along this line: "Everyone is super tired as well so you shouldn't make that an excuse. Talking is a way to loosen up. If I don't start becoming friendly to strangers I'm going to be one of those people who stand in a packed lift and pretend arrogance."

He couldn't accept the fact that not everyone wants to wind down from work with a 'light chat' with random people. Thus he went on and on about people like me who don't converse with random strangers in lifts and listening to iPods and etc.

I didn't bother to digest everything else he said because my mind had already switched to fight mode. And so my killing words were, "I understand and I agree I'm not the only person in this train who is tired. But it's been a very busy day for me. Plus, when I do find myself in a situation in a lift with others like me I will most definitely respect that person's wish not to talk. So thank YOU for respecting MY wishes."

Orang taknak cakap, sudah lah. Why be so persistent? What the fuck? Sorry for my rudeness. If everybody in this world is all happy and willing to be selfless, there wouldn't be corruption and World Wars. Welcome to my hell, stupid man. *snort*

Aaaaaargh! *breathes in, breathes out*

Luckily my dad picked me up from the station just a few minutes after the agreed time. If I had to wait another 15 mins, I would've cried from the injustice.

Yet my bad luck doesn't end there. I very VERY nearly swallowed telur lalat on the piece of fettuccine in the second scoop of my dinner. What the fuck! What about the first suap? Selamat ke tak? Aaaaaargh! I hope I won't get food poisoning. Alhamdulillah, nasib baik ada nasi ayam if not I really would've cried from the injustice. =__=

Now I have to start running through 50 plus pages of Fhizah's thesis in order to finish by next Thursday. AND I need to get up earlier tomorrow as preparation before the monthly meeting. Aaaaaargh~ The things I go through... *sigh*

The SUGI is ALIVE!

Well hello there, SUGIZO-sama. I spot you at last week's Yoshiki's Popularity Fanfare hide Memorial Service. Love your hair length despite your skeletony frame. *whispers* Has your captor been feeding you lately?

Does Yoshiki also let you out to roam free on important days such as these, hmm? I'm sure those long sleeves are covering shackle marks or somewhat. And for goodness sake, update your website and blog. Pretty please? Thanks..

In the meantime, I still can't find links for your 4th digital single. Sorry, I'm only gonna rip it off Youtube later because me have no VISA, yo. High time for you to work on this month's single! (Oops, I'm being pushy ain't I?)

[Photo credit: Mainichi JP but sad how J's name wasn't featured]

note: Yes, I still think Evil!Yoshiki man-napped Sugi. He's just temporarily unleashing the poor guy to keep up his public image.

double note: Is it not blatantly obvious that I have lost all respect for X Japan's leader? *snorts*

VK, oh VK

The lull is killing me. Have they hit a slump? How booooring can they be??

Has SUGIZO hit a slump? His last blog update was from late last month. I worry he was maybe secretly hospitalised after his body was found nearly drained empty of blood in his studio after a month of poring through notes and notes to make a new song and trying to piece something together on his guitar but the endless practice caused his fingers to bleed yet still he didn't relent because he'd promised everyone to release one single a month......... *breathesssss iiiin*

Maybe Sugi is being kept locked somewhere underground (why underground? beats me) in Florida by Yoshiki so that he won't escape before the dreaded 'concert' in LA where X Japan will be performing with a bunch of nameless-smallfry-loser US indie bands just when he'd felt enough is enough and he wanted to salvage his pride and dignity by rejoining with Luna Sea members and reviving his old band...... *gasp gasp*

=_= Sorry. Work has caused my brain to malfunction tonight.

But before I leave, Koichi's (top pic) sexy shoulders and back is making me think naughty thoughts. Siiiigh ♥

Bread and Butter

This will be my staple lunch for at least 2 months until I manage to save up 4K for our Seoul trip. =______=

I vill also need to go und make ze new zpectacles I promised myself since October 2009.

Mine's already so wonky plus my eyesight is so bad I'm not sure I'd be in perfect form to randomly spot Shinhwa members while we're there.

OKANE, COME TO MEEEEEH!!

*cough* Need a raise need a raise need a raise.

Oh! Please please make sure to read this hilarious Yokoyama You solo concert report. Eito turned up and makes me wish we could go to their concerts. ;_;

Uncommentable

This blog is for the moment uncommentable due to some technical problem. No solution is foreseen within the near future as their programmers are 'busy'. However, this matter has possibly been added to their backburner list -- aka the 'will look into it only after urgent higher priority issues are settled' list.

Hm. Actually I do understand and am familiarised with debugging problems so I realise I shouldn't be extremely bitchy about it. Sigh. :(

Oh but I would so love to flame Friendster for its half-assed implementation and maintenance of projects.

Great Big Dreams

Photos of pretty sakura trees coupled with the recent stress at work is making me want to go to Japan again faster. T_T

Which reminds me. I need to apply for credit card!! *kicks butt*

UGHHHHHHH =__= Thus I will be very lazy these few days and am gonna spend this weekend watching doramas back to back [Tokyo Dogs, Atashinchi no Danshi, Buzzer Beat]. Enjoy your weekend!

And oh, HAPPY 31ST BIRTHDAY TSUYOSHI-SAN! ♥ Although I didn't have time to prepare anything for you this year, I shall spend all day today fantasizing about you. HAHAHAHA 8D

Park Your Brain, Please

Got stuck outside Subway Kelana Jaya because the driver of an Iswaria didn't show up -_-

Displaying your handphone number in your parked vehicle requires you to ANSWER your calls, wouldn't it? At least be more attentive to the loud honking when you know you're blocking other people's car.

My boss even went up to the saloon which owned the parking lot (oops, illegal) to look for this person but got scolded instead.

After 30 minutes or so, a couple came out from... SUBWAY!! Oh of all the ironies.

I refrained from cursing in my 'Thank You' sms. The reply I got from the girlfriend was "Really sorry for the inconvenience..." (LIKE, WTF?!) Seriously, these kids need a whack.

No Longer Ignorable

I was too absorbed while cleaning up and updating my music library that I missed 90% of tonight's SDK episode ;_;

My resolution to watch Domoto Kyoudai 'live' gets kicked to next week yet again. Sheesh. I really REALLY need to set my handphone AND iPod alarms to go off at 10.30pm next Sunday. Because *omgifeellikekillingsomeone* Becky will be on next ep!

It'll be the second appearance for the die-hard KinKi and spazzy Koichi fangirl! What has she got up her sleeve this time?

Last year she brought one of her copies of the super rare pre-debut KinKi Kids photobook which then prompted Kochan and Tsuyo to autograph it right then and there. Bah!! I was so green with envy then that I didn't bother watching it.

Screencap credit: Nafiza @ LJ

Nampaknye I have to download the above infamous ep before Sunday... *bangs head on table* Ano, I don't hate her anymore (ever since I saw her coolness on NEWS' 24Hour TV) but but but but...

Sigh. I hope she won't be extra annoying in the upcoming Nodame movies. Otherwise I'd have to hate her all over again.

Eenie Meenie Miney Moe

AH! I mismatched the mag titles and its cover! Why is my memory so bad?



The magazine that Farah saw at Kino today and offered to buy first is the one on the left: Ovation. I thought she was talking about Best Stage! T-T

Both aren't exactly Koichi's best sexiest photoshoots, but:

• Ovation Feb 2010 has plenty of pages on him in a pretty cathedral and has that one shot where he's honest to goodness SMILING. Although he looks too friggin thin in here. It also has a 2 page pullout pinup.


• Best Stage Mar 2010 only has around 8 pages of normal studio shots but it offers a 3 page pullout poster. Black outfit. *drools* And this issue has that MA interview. (Like OMG Yara!)

Both are fucking expensive I seriously would shit my pants.

MAS gone ANA-L

Goodbye, JAL. Thank you for the fond memory (and delicious food). [October 2009]

Now that they've gulung their tikar, there's no longer a cheaper direct flight route to Japan. Apparently Kuala Lumpur is just not important enough for Japan's biggest carrier company, ANA, because we have been scrapped off their flight plan. Ciskek. Damn MAS for being so expensive. I sure as hell ain't gonna fly with them. Not unless ANA's Singapore route is way too exorbitant.

Sigh. Here's to hoping I am sturdy enough to save A LOT of money for our next trip in 2011.

I find myself dreaming more and more lately. My brain processing is probably going haywire. Must sleep early. Yes, must sleep early. Time is now 12:59 AM. Huh! Oh well, another 30 minutes would hardly affect my mental state, no? Mwahah.

Yara has just commanded me to stay awake. This time yet again, my slowpoke self just learned that he had been showing up regularly at Shokura with THEYbudou (KinKi's newest backdancers). OMFG! Apart from his solo dance performance, they've also re-choreographed KinKi's old songs! Absolute win. Rawr.

1. Jounetsu no Hitoyo - Shonentai sorry, can't embed here but daaayum is Yaracchi hawte or whut?

2. LOVESICK - KinKi Kids



3. Seppaku no Tsuki & Misty - KinKi Kids he should dance more with them, and not Kisumai -_-

Yara's singing has improved! *O*

MUST. DOWNLOAD. BWAHAHAHAHA.

Time now... 1:28 AM xD

[edit] Ooooh what's this I found? An old Music Jump clip with Yara. I feel Tonisen's awkwardness. Haha. Just look at how jambu Tackey, Tsubasa and Yara were x___x

Forecastism

Reading up (some more) about KinKi Kids' zodiac took up my working hours today. Oops. There goes productivity, down the drain... Whooosh!

My OTP doesn't allow me to work seriously anymore. Not after our trip to Japan. I have a feeling I might get sacked sooner or later for becoming despondent and for other nefarious reasons.

What a tortorous week. Can't the weekend come sooner? Speaking of weekends, Farah and I will be visiting JLa because she got admitted due to her recurring asthma. I didn't realise sooner from the FB posts so I'm very sorry, my madu! Will make it up to you this Sat. =)

Oh! Someone has finally uploaded forbidden days rhapsody's Canticum! But Sendspace is a bitch. I hate my connection right now. I'm sleepy. I'm whining so I should get this post over with by lamenting about how Yoshiki is ruining his band's image as a legend.

X Japan's "Made in Hollywood" four music videos is not so good news. For me. I dunno. Yoshiki just really suck nowadays with his broken promises, his obsession in trying to commercialise VK into the US market and the cancelled concerts. And him pulling in SUGIZO again and again is making me ill. Sugi-chan jumps from one project (Juno Reactor) to another project (this) TOO fast that his body would surely combust the next time he steps close to a nuclear reactor. Sorry, that was a pun due to his activist role. I know you don't get it but whatthehey. Anyhoo~ If Sugizo complains about being so tired but still works his skinny ass off 24/7 then he should just stop and rest, yes?

Ah damn, I ended up lamenting about Sugi =__=

*lies down to sleep*

January, oh, January

No holiday 'til mid of next month. No concrete plan for our next concert viewing yet. Which reminds me that I'd need to transfer all D drive contents to my shiny new 1TB external. *grins* What a shameless way to promote.

2010 will be a weird year for me. Financially, I'm not supposed to spend extravagantly on materialistic expenditures that is deigned to bring me pleasure. Or so I understand from one Cancer forecast. May have to look for a CrabLion cusp-ish site so I'll feel less guilty on buying DVDs. Mwahah.

Onnnn a slightly angsty mode, Andy's soldier boy life is just 5 days away! ;_; He's so gonna be thinner, ne.

Secondly, I don't get why people are so stuck on proving why Koichi doesn't publicly show his affection to Tsuyo. By telling other fans to not get worked up over his cold expression during Tsuyoshi's love song recital, that blogger herself is strictly viewing the situation as a KKL extremist. Her own words degrades their relationship -'ghei love' if you wanna call it that- to a one-track-mind bond.

C'mon kids, wake up and smell the flowers. Why torture Koichi for being himself? Tsuyo's done that to Koichi too woh. I don't see you getting sad over that.

Their bond is too profound for categories. *kicks*

p/s: Sugizo's second tour for Cosmic Dance around Taiwan and Tokyo is done. Can we see some pictures, pls? *bats eyelashes* And ehem, finally a post I can tag with Shinhwa! (Mian -_-)

Friggin' Making Me Poor

Oi. Oi. Oi. Enough with the barrage of information!

My heart is still struggling to recover from abs' sneak peek song off their new album. And then realising I'm a few days late to listen to SUGIZO's latest 2 digital singles caused a blow to my pride. Now SUGIZO's telling me to save up for yet another solo concert DVD. Okay so there's no official announcement of a release yet, but how else would he be earning his money??

Oh EFF all you rich old fogeys. Can't a girl enjoy the coming new decade with a lot of money in her pocket? You jusssst had to, huh? Grrrrrr.

At the moment I can foresee BIG $$$ loss in the year 2010:

1. abingdon boys school [Abingdon Road] - Jan 27


2. KinKi Kids J concert DVD - sometime during summer?


3. Middle East trip


4. Japan trip savings (for 2011)


5. Koichi BPM 2009 DVD


6. Sugi's DVD


7. Shinhwa? I doubt they'll have anything important but you never know.. huhuh


8. Starbucks coffee - thank you, addiction

Hmm. What else?

Anyhoo. Merry Christmas and happy holidays.