Bursting with Love

Last year, my heart was empty and I grappled very hard to find a place I fit in. Back then I was devastated with the materialism of Kpop and realised that I hadn't especially been attentive of my Jrock self. So I filled it up with so many things at once that I may have lost sight of what matters most.

Thus after 1 year and 2 months from this post [Just So You Know], here is where I stand now. I cleaned up nicely, ne? :)

1. Luna Sea 2. Shinhwa 3. KinKi Kids 4. Sugizo 5. Rentrer en Soi 6. MUCC 7. NoGoD 8. Chemical Pictures 9. abingdon boys school 10. FAKE? 11. NEWS 12. INORAN 13. D 14. Kanjani8 15. D'espairsRay 16. DEAD END 17. Satsuki 18. Versailles 19. Dir en grey 20. Kagrra, 21. DaizyStripper 22. DELUHI 23. SID 24. X

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Comments:
- I thought I shouldn't put #3 at the same level as #1 and #2, but I realise I love them as much.
- #5, oh #5. Absence makes the heart grow fonder. And Takumi's regret doubles it.
- Entrees #7 and #8 scored high because of their fondness for each other. I'm also biased coz of Jimi. Heh. Besides, NoGoD is AWESOME!
- Shuffled a lot of names to make way for other potential new groups like #13, #21 and #22 although #10 isn't a newbie. I just hadn't explored FAKE? before and am regretting it.
- #11 and #14 are here because they make me laugh and smile like a noona fan. mwahah.
- #17 manages a low rung since he hasn't even release an album and his solo singles are okay - not great. Yet I still think he's the best vocalist ever (2nd only after Ryuichi).
- #24? Sigh. Only due to Sugizo. I'll feel bad if I completely diss hide's memories. But then it's only memories. In with the new, out with the old! Bah. I'm a contradiction.

Say goodbye to:
- Pierrot: Let bygones by bygones.
- V6: Hm, easily replaced with NEWS and Eito. And Tokio's single sounds better.
- hide & Acid Black Cherry: I haven't been listening to them in a long time.
- Matenrou Opera & 12012: Not impressed.
- Hyoshin: The first half of 2010 for me, aren't slow and saaaad ballads. Ick. Maybe I'll be ready once he comes back in September.
- ExistTrace & DangerGang: Whatever.

And the Biggest Loser goes to...
- the GazettE: Ugh. My age isn't the issue. They seriously dried up. Their obsessed fans are no help either.
- Duel Jewel: Nope, no more chances.
- Jinkaku Radio: I got turned off because the vocalist's personality is annoying.

If you compare the artwork, The Heart is no longer bleeding out of loneliness and no longer does it want to escape to a place where it will be accepted.

I'm home sweet home with my VK fandoms.

Honey Beat

Who wouldn't want 5 Godfathers as handsome as V6? Inocchi, please bring your baby boy along to Johnny's meetings/gatherings/dinners/triad meetings.

• Sakamoto-riida can first teach him how to do a backflip.


• Nagano (the Godmother) can um bring him to ramenya? Just don't let the kid turn into Naruto, sudah.


• Go and Ken will surely teach him dance and apprentice the boy in their future pranks.


• Okada can teach him Kansaiben. Hahah.

Assuming V6 is that close and Asaka Seto would let her child enter the jimusho this early. Pueheh. So the list goes on =P

*must download that V6 game soon*

By the way, I dreamt I listened to Porno Graffitti singing Koda Kumi's "Honey Flash". Sounded cool tho weird that I came up with this concoction.

Anyway, as per requested by Lisa (KinKi fan whee) I'm sharing 'new' links for KinKi skins: [ Smiles ] and [ Yakusoku ] ;D

KinKi-ed Up!

Owh hell yeah, I love this Mandigo theme. Now I can spruce up the background here as much as I want to (when I'm free to). Major thanks to this tip off.

Shall start with KinKi ♥

Centralised background, hence we should be able to play around with higher screen resolutions. This will allow more widescreen customisation. Meaning: MOAR images to pimp with the possibility of a larger canvas width.

Looking at the limited viewing space for 1024x768 screens, I dunno how I'd be able fit all six Shinhwa members tho'. *sheepish smile* So I urge all of you to please buy widescreen monitors in order to see all the missing parts. Akekeke.

Or you can just change your browser 'zoom in' function.

On another geeky customising move I made: Google Analytics tracker has been added! Er, so the pageviews figures aren't gonna be huge or anything (note: estimating this blog will only hit less than 20 views per month) but I'm curious as to where my readers come from :P

Since my blog does sometimes manage to pop up in Google Search whenever I look for Jrock/Visual Kei info, ya know? *boasts*

Eid Mubarak!

An advanced Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to my fellow friends and readers :D



I'll be spending a week in Johor (Thu to Fri in JB) and will be back on Wednesday. Have a great time eating and fattening our fat arses. Mwahaha.

For some reason I'm being really perky, eventhough I should be at home PACKING but I'm not... and our tour package is yet to be confirmed... and I'm leaving a lot of work to be handled by some 2 persons in the office... so yeah, anyway... KinKi made me super happy today because they'll be releasing a NEW SINGLE next month.

And if my trip is double triple confirmed, it might overlap with the single release day! GOSH! *dies of happiness*

Raya Cards

Lawa sangat plak aku buat e-greetings utk GSC nih =__=;;

*sends for approval*

I'm tired of making a lot of versions due to cough komen membina cough so this time around I'm gonna do it right and all purty!

You can see em up at the site oh in about 2 weeks or so.

Just So You Know

1. Luna Sea 2. Shinhwa 3. KinKi Kids 4. Sugizo 5. Rentrer en Soi 6. MUCC 7. Pierrot 8. abingdon boys school 9. SID 10. V6 11. hide 12. Kagrra, 13. the GazettE 14. Dir en grey 15. Acid Black Cherry 16. Duel Jewel 17. D'espairsRay 18. Inoran 19. Park Hyo Shin 20. Versailles 21. Matenrou Opera 22. 12012 23. Jinkaku Radio 24. X Japan 25. NoGod 26. ExistTrace 27. DangerGang

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Love is immeasureable. But can be ranked by importance, yes?

This is roughly my favourites. Together with whom I assume to be in future. Since I realised not many of my friends are 100% sure of who I like and prefer. I've been vague after all, gomen ne.

Comments:
- #6 and #14 have both excellently matured.
- #9 and #20 are by far the closest to a budding interest.
- I'm expecting #13's DIM to be strong yet nothing new from them has surpassed NIL yet so... I say 'Grow Up!' or get flamed.
- #8, #15 and #17 latest releases are a bit stale but their skills are intact. boleh dimaafkan.
- #24 is here not because of their comeback or Yoshiki, but because they gifted the world with #1 and #14.
- due to my fickleness, the bottom half may change positions or get replaced without notice.
- the top 15 will remain. unless #13 & #15 goes against my expectations. tsk tsk.
- #19 is in the list cos I'm reluctant to let him go. heh.

For some reason I can't explain, I feel ridiculous that I don't have a favourite VK band or band member from this decade. If you ask me what I listen to these days, I'd gladly rattle off a few names but oh please PLEASE don't ask me what I liked 6 months ago coz I won't remember. The truth hurts when you get older. Hahah.

The last fandom I was sucked into was short-lived: Rentrer en Soi disbanded in 2007 then Satsuki, whom has the absolute best vocal I've listened to in YEARS, went and started his awaited solo career -- but it sucked. Really.

So after Rentrer, not one single band has kept my attention for more than a month (ouch, so harsh!). It's hard to hold onto one when I keep comparing everyone to Luna Sea and Rentrer... *slaps self*

More or less how I compare Shinhwa with other Kpop groups. But then Shinhwa IS the best so this is pointless.

Anyway, I no longer bother to collect scans, download lives or concerts which would eventually lead me to target any guy or 'guy' if you prefer that kind.

Besides, these younger Jrockers look TOO typically pretty that I can't differentiate this face from another when instead they should be focusing on real talent, real skills and making real music! They... um... I'll... stop bashing already =__=

ps: Tagging this post is horrendous work *howls* I'll keep it short and sweet.

Dawning Realisation

I feel heartbroken eventhough at times I'm very aware when I pretend that I'm not *sighs* It's no longer a mystery, the 'KinKi Kids Love' (KKL) relationship.

I guess I made a good decision by reading their zodiac compatibility before I became enamoured by the razz 'n dazzle. Summarily, the bond between an Aries (Tsuyoshi the Ram) and a Capricorn (Koichi the Goat) brings lush promise for a successful career but personal rifts between these two opposite figures are aplenty. Oh but I'm not saying I don't trust their companionship -- BOO to all you nonbeliever fans who think they're putting up an act! In fact I truly believe they are fated together. Strictly in terms of work, of course.

Whoa... who knew that that infamous Johnny's Special episode of Domoto Tsuyoshi no Shoujiki Shindoi from 2004 could affect me this much. *wipes 'sweat' from my eyes*

Yet I'm glad I did watch that rascal Tsuyoshi (I say this in a non-condemning way) make a fool out of himself and annoy others on his own show. Worrying over internal ties among V6 and KinKi Kids doesn't help my stress, ne?

One good thing came out of it: a growing respect for Okada's loyalty. ♥

Plus, a firm decision to not overthink about Tsuyo's craziness and Sakamoto's scariness.

And so out of sheer boredom and a need to calm my nerves, I came up with a new friendster profile layout to replace the 3 month old Shinhwa Anniversary background. Wow! I finally reached the main point of this post!

Behold, the blue and grey representing my worry. That damn control panel css won't be tweaked no matter what I do so ape2 je lah.

Pink Gets In My Eye

Am SHOCKed (*pun intended) by today's news that Koichi will be having a solo concert prolly in the next month or so. Although the schedule announcement isn't out yet... I hope it won't be in October cos my heart will break in a million pieces. =__=

So I'm guessing the rumour of him being in a drama next season is just a rumour, no? Sigh.

Enjoy~ Tsuyo (Plus) Kochan in gay pink. Download here.

Note:

* SHOCKed = Since Koichi hasn't release a solo album in like urm more than 2 years, this should be yet another 'SHOCK' (his musical) themed concert.

Unsent Fan Letter

Dear KinKi-san,

You two occupy too much of my time. I've got 3 dramas pending but you just won't leave me alone, huh? I've got loads of work with a tight deadline but you just won't let me be, eh?

Not having a life will fuel an indecent obsession to not do any work at home and spend the whole night (and weekends) watching the same KinKi videos over and over again.

Not having Internet access at home will fuel an unholier obsession to repeat the same Domoto Kyodai episode over and over again for the past 7 days. This episode being the one where you, Tsuyo-san, introduced your 'toilet', Kochan, to us.

However! Occupying too much of my time, my mind and my heart will fuel a greedy obsession to showcase Winamp skins in order to be accepted as a 'generous' fan eventhough I know they're not the prettiest of my creations.



So I blame you both if I get flamed for such lousy skins. Which, by the way are entitled Basic (in red, white and black) and Koichi's Hope.

Yours (and Dongwans's) truly,
Hmspstr

All Shades of Blue and White

Happy 30th Birthday, Tsuyoshi-san! Oh and congratulations on the release of your album, your single and your live tour start. And yeah thank you for being MFEO MFDK (Made For Domoto Koichi). ;D

Here's my present as promised: 1 angsty KinKi [download] + 1 happy 10-years-ago KinKi [download] :D



I doubt anybody use Winamp anymore. But it's the thought that counts, right?

I've submitted photos of the sky for Tsuyo's birthday fan project. Yay! I hope he gets to see the 'world' through our eyes eventhough my pics weren't exactly spectacular or anything. But hey didn't I say it's the thought that counts? ne? ne?

Been too preoccupied with the harsh realities of life that I haven't given thought to my surroundings anymore. when I was small, I used to love to sit at our house porch as a storm rolls in, watching the swollen dark grey clouds racing with the wind. Then I'd stare and stare at the rainwater pooling under my dad's car and drown ants send floating leafs down the drain.

Nightime gazing at the moon was one of my favourite pastimes too. I had even stupidly 'wished' on fullmoons, praying that Barbie dolls would magically appear in my toybox. Or that my stupid brother would fall down and break his leg or something to that effect. Hah! Such naivety in a Cancer kid!

Well, my perception of a perfect sky is plenty different from Tsuyo's preference for white tufty clouds. But it's wonderful how he's made us slowed down a bit from our hectic schedules (which has always been his ambition).

Pre-announcement

Due to unforseen circumstances, I am sorry to announce that I will no longer continue creating the Winamp Skins of Hyesung and Wheesung respectively requested by Farah and Nwar.

All my artwork (before my old PC died) is still trapped in its harddisk. Sedih tak?

However, since my hand so gatal and you know lah me... I've skipped on ahead to make other skins that are more closer to my current obsession interest  xDD *ehem ehem*

I shall unveil my new work on the 10th of April as a birthday tribute to ________.

Bleah

Check out my new profile page background: Happy 11th Anniversary to the 6 wacky guys we love so much!

Tension-filled week. Sigh. At this point I care shitless about what may happen, if it will be possible, or if I can tahan all this muck and all other incoming muck that gets thrown at me.

Selfish or not, in the long run I'm never going to regret this decision. Ever. The hell with what other people may say.

Wish me luck.

On a less somber mood, Kochan and Tsuyo are the two main reasons I'm still keeping up with life. Oh hey but reality check! Won't be able to go on download sprees as carefree as I have done previously.

I might've missed this in the 2009 Cancer horoscope but moronic and hypocrite brothers sure seem to be a big issue this year. Huh.

So much for ending this post on a happier note.

In Bad Need of a Massage

My shoulders ache real bad (for like almost a month) ever since I shifted the position of my monitor. I've been slouching in my seat too. -_- Bad habit of mine.

The amount of stress these days ain't helping either. Sigh.

The year of the Bull predictions? Not in the mood to further think about money currently. Not when it's already like duh 4 more months to May, thank you very much. *requests you oh-so-kind souls to help pray that I get to save up for Tokyo*

Luckily I'm able to find solace in Yaracchi's arms Koichi's melting smiles. With the consent from Farah and Michele, my first JE initiation is by having my profile layout changed. Mwahah. I got tired of Sugi's Juno tour layout. So...

Behold: KINKI KIDSUUU!

*skips away to watch Yaracchi musical goodness*

Oh, I forgot. Please check out the compiled list of my music reviews here or click on [Past Music].

Salam Raya

I fell asleep yet again on my keyboard. Hence the utter plainness of this Raya greeting. <_<

This all due to exhaustion from work (I pity Roy for getting dumped with my load) and delayed withdrawal from yesterday's siaoness with the girls (Happy Birthday, Mish! Hope you like my gift).

So I snored through sahur and I seriously can't remember hearing the alarm! And now I'll be balik-ing kampung on an empty stomach!

EID MUBARAK! :D

As Dorky as They Can Be

Why are there no longer videos that show all six of them being dorks like this?

I miss seeing them in the same video together...

overspent x_x

i pray that Shinhwa oppa deul will forgive me for the sins i have done. *chews on fingernails* the introvert-shopper in me was caught purchasing several items that may or may not cause setbacks to my Seoul Trip Budget (let's name it STB).

you see, with my STB plan in motion, i vowed not to indulge in materialistic endeavours apart from spending on food and necessities.

now look what i bought within just a period of TWO days! T_T

1. L'Arc~en~Ciel's KISS CD - it was only selling for RM60 which would've cost a TON if i bought it off YesAsia. i swear i really thought it through instead of just grabbing it off the shelf and running to the counter (who am i convincing?)


2. CDData November issue - erm, i was feeling a tad excited yesterday frolicking in Kinokuniya's newly renovated Japanese corner. besides, it has abingdon boys school and Luna Sea featured... *feels guilt pricking on skin*


3. Korean to English dictionary - aha! i need this! i really really needed this. ahahahahaha. -_-

i'm not even sure how much i spent for the past 2 months. God knows what my total savings amount is since i haven't gone to any Public Bank branch yet. clever, Arfah, clever!

mayhaps the splurging was due to the full moon? <-- what a stupid excuse.

before i forget, i'd like to wish a HAPPY YULETIDE to all my beloved friends, acquaintances and oppas *points to those six guys and one other man*.

anyway, i'm in the midst of finishing my new Luna Sea Skin. errrr this was an unplanned skin, and i have like 3 or 4 skins that i should have finished 6 months ago. siiigh. couldn't very well pass up the chance to do a tribute to their concert last night, ne?

Happy Birthday, Dongwan!

Selamat Ulang Tahun buat suamiku tercinta <3

Tatkala dia sedang sibuk membikin recording 'tuk album baru, disamping persiapan (secara mental) utk menjalankan tugas besar tahun hadapan... isk isk, ku melewati Photoshop yg sudah kian lama tidak disentuh dan menyediakan grafik untuk hari jadinya.

Apsal aku tulis dalam BM ni? hish.

For a few days I'll be using this graphic as my profile background. Just until I manage to bake another Luna Sea layout for December (the concert is 33 days away!!)

I hope my love reaches him ;D

tweaked

at long last, i figured out how the profile page css works. tweaked a little coding here, a little there and voila! i've got me a brand new design to go with my spanking posh background img. ah~ there's nothing more cooler than black, grey and bluish-green tints. except for orange. heheh.

honestly, i amaze myself with my obsession for Luna Sea these days. ;P

moreover, the recent spate of afternoon showers make for excellent mossy and dark imagery. rain maketh a person's imagination run wild, indeed (not to be practiced during working hours). now if only i'd remember to bring my sweater to the office. brrr.

reunify our bleak hearts and souls

i just LOVE my current wallpaper <3 -- look everyone, it's Luna Sea! yay!

-_- it's a bitter reminder because i won't be able to rock out in Tokyo with them.

yesterday i overdid myself by making this wallie and my spanking new friendster profile background pic. nice eh? eventho' this picture of them was during their last concert (as a band) years ago, i used it to signify their upcoming reunion concert. and that no matter how much i want them to rebuild the band, in the end they must go their separate ways again. sort of a closure to their love-hate relationship? siiigh.

for Shinhwa in the coming years, i don't want them to go through any breakups. seriously. just grow old together, please.

adver-tease-me

C L I C K  H E R E. bleh.

and H E R E for haaaaawwttteee pictures of Dong Bang Shin Ki and Super Junior during their concert in our beloved country, Malaysia ^______^