KD = Kill. Die.

Dear Mr Koichi Domoto,

You... You... You IDIOT! I just bought your F1 book and I still owe my bestfriend money for your concert merchandise then now you decide to drop another bomb on me with your concert DVD? Dem yuu!!! 3 discs for Limited Edition version? Apa ko gile? Hah? Hah? Hah?

Don't you know I have enough debts keliling my pinggang? Seoul hotel, Bangkok flight tix and and and Yamapi concert tix... I'm like even persuading myself not to buy Luna Sea's Reboot to New Moon DVD LE lar wei. Cut me some slack, ok.

And then you and Tsuyo said that KinKi Kids will have a lot of surprises for us this year. Isn't that too much for me to handle?

Plus, my Astro bill just arrived today eventhough I felt like it was only yesterday when I last paid for it. Bills, bills, bills.

Just to remind you hor, end of 2011 will be bad for me hor. You better be responsible for me hor. HOR.

Love you but hate you,
Arfah

Welcoming 2011

Happy New Year. Wishing you a blessed year ahead :)

Me? I foresee a poor me trying to handle FOUR fandoms at once in 2011 T___T

As you may very well know now (especially via Twitter) the 2PM-verse has taken over me. Shinhwa-verse is back with a vengeance, thanks to Dongwan and Eric's future activities. Luna Sea-verse is SERIOUSLY back with an even bigger vengeance. Aaaand KinKi is enjoying their happy marriage as if they've just got back from their 2nd (3rd? 4th?) honeymoon [read this for fun: 1st Jan Birthday concert report]

♥

All that equals to Pokainess. Huhuh.

So in a bid (to attempt) to be mature, I will spend some time to start up resolutions for 2011 because honestly... Did I even have a list for 2010?? If I did then nothing came out from that. Hahahahahahaaaaiiih.

1. Save money - Refrain from splurging on meals. Less Zanmai, Tei and Ichiba.
2. Save money - Reduce caffeine intake. Less Starbucks. Huhuhu.
3. Save money - Stop shopping for unnecessary clothes.
4. Lose weight + save money - No more lunching out. Unless compulsory.
5. Be happier. I hope my luck gets better...
6. Handle stress better. Sigh.
7. Save hair - Goodness, hair loss!
8. Find a new job? Huwaaaah~
9. Kemas sty bilik

Yeaaaa. Money is a big issue. I hope I have enough for Seoul. And Yamapi. And ***.

Others will be added once I can think up of more. I know there's a backlog of this and that at the back of my mind somewhere. *digs digs* Soon. SOON.

Happiness doesn't seem like an issue now. I just need to reshift the balance of fandoms coz it looks like (ARF: What a hypocrite!) Kpop is back in my life. Also, I'm not sure how KinKi will be this year since their mood swings go from North to East to West to South (yes, a pun :D) but so far so good. One main focus is my job lor. Haih.

Road to Poverty

Ah goodness, I'm still dizzy from clicking on that Buy button for Luna Sea's Mafuyu & Manatsu DVD combo. Don't you just hate unplanned shopping? There goes the small hope I harbored for a Fossil wristwatch. *chucks dream out the window*

I do so really hope that my money's not going to fly out the door in November. Oh crap! Won't November be the time when Luna Sea concert goods are announced? Ngghh! *clutches keyboard and chews on it*

Well this might be a good start for a... hmm, a priority list to fit my budget? My head's a mess with the upcoming Wonder Girls concert, KinKi concert, Seoul trip, Dongwan's album plus God knows what else I have to pay for by February.

Furthermore, there is still no news from Public Bank on my card application. Was my letter lost somewhere? Guh. *spits out crushed numeric keys*

So registering for Sugizo's fanclub [Soul's Mate] is definitely out of the question. Eventhough it is only about RM200, it's kinda useless since I won't be able to enjoy the benefits other than getting access to his Fans-Only site. Sucky uptight rule of no shipping to non-JP addresses.

Sigh. My year is really going down the drain after the awesome weeks of August and September. The stress I'm going through with all the money problems and work. Honestly... How do people adapt to change so well? It's really impossible for me to accept this kind of pressure, of suddenly being thrust in front of the shooting squad.

I hate management. I hate being the Alpha. I'm an Omega and people like me can't make it and break it like some others do. But why am I still heeere? *kicks self outta orbit*

=____= Fark. Instead of listing out my job scope like my boss asked me to, I'm going to rewatch Goong because I don't fucking care about my career right now.

So Tired...

So. Freaking. Tired.

I should already be sleeping, but this lured me to stay awake: Yone's blogpost on Okinawa & Koichi

I WANT CONCERT REPOS OMG! *kills self*

Reluctant to Sleep

I don't wanna go to work today to settle that KFC superbanner issue! Argh. This is just one of those times when I hate my job. Suck it up and get over it. SUCK IT UP AND GET OVER IT. Hm. Let's see how long I can handle the shit. =__=

Braindead. Gonna watch Unubore Deka now.

50 seconds into the show. I think my 'gaze sensor' is broken. Well beyond repair. Yeah, yeah, so I'm commitment phobic. W-w-w-wait. What the hell does this particular sensor have anything to do with commitment? Nevermind... Brain. Too. Dead.

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From July onwards

I was having a look-see through a shop fanpage and after a few clickety-clicks, I have just spent more money on clothes. Granted it was only RM26 in total and I did promise myself not to shop anymore this month. Then my Compulsive Shopper Self kicked in and I succumbed to the coolness of a certain Dumbledore-esque tshirt.

Haih. I still haven't paid Farah for KinKi and dagnammit I am saving up for a Canon Powershot S90!

So... with plans on not splurging on unimportant stuff, I have these to look forward to:

July - birthday celebration ♥ wheee
August - KinKi J con DVD release, hopefully arrives in August
September - new and final season of Smallville

Three happy end-of-the-rainbow stuff to make the stress go away. Amongst others there will also be upcoming album and single releases from VK Land and Jyaniz.

Must. Stay. Sane.

The Old

Apparently Friendster blog's commenting problem has been resolved. No notification received. Only got like an email about moderating a spam comment. Nyeh. I've already gotten cozy here at Blogger. Should I just close my Friendster account?

Wonder Girls, Beast, Brian Joo? Er, aku paling sanggup pn bayar teket plg murah for WG and Brian.

Sugizo and Gackt? GILER BEST.

Work? Sucks.

HEDFUC (by FAKE?)

Wonderful. My iPod chose to die after such a long and tiring day -- which triggered a chain of WTF-ness that started with such an 'eventful' ride home that had my mood going from tired to outspoken bitchy. If only Sugi-chan's battery hadn't been used up due to Pinball Ride Ultimate, I wouldn't have suffered through torture tonight.

Anyway as I was leaving the office, I knew that something weird was about to happen. That awful feeling down the pit of my stomach was actually a signal for my day to end badly. Adalah pulak sorang mamat ni dalam LRT, wanted to go all chatty with me out of the blue. I thought, "Oh great. Of all people, you decide to talk to me? Me! The one who doesn't even like to talk to strangers."

Usually when some people tegur me, I will smile and nod and then feign disinterest and that other person will get the picture, ya know? This dude?! It was so obvious dia nak mengorat because his questions were "Keje kat mana?" and "Nama apa?" and "Tinggal dekat mana?"

By right, normal friendly strangers won't even ask that lah~ hello! When I didn't want to divulge the info I consider personal (especially without reason), I told him that I had a busy day so I'm not open for a discussion but then he went and got all accusatory and said something along this line: "Everyone is super tired as well so you shouldn't make that an excuse. Talking is a way to loosen up. If I don't start becoming friendly to strangers I'm going to be one of those people who stand in a packed lift and pretend arrogance."

He couldn't accept the fact that not everyone wants to wind down from work with a 'light chat' with random people. Thus he went on and on about people like me who don't converse with random strangers in lifts and listening to iPods and etc.

I didn't bother to digest everything else he said because my mind had already switched to fight mode. And so my killing words were, "I understand and I agree I'm not the only person in this train who is tired. But it's been a very busy day for me. Plus, when I do find myself in a situation in a lift with others like me I will most definitely respect that person's wish not to talk. So thank YOU for respecting MY wishes."

Orang taknak cakap, sudah lah. Why be so persistent? What the fuck? Sorry for my rudeness. If everybody in this world is all happy and willing to be selfless, there wouldn't be corruption and World Wars. Welcome to my hell, stupid man. *snort*

Aaaaaargh! *breathes in, breathes out*

Luckily my dad picked me up from the station just a few minutes after the agreed time. If I had to wait another 15 mins, I would've cried from the injustice.

Yet my bad luck doesn't end there. I very VERY nearly swallowed telur lalat on the piece of fettuccine in the second scoop of my dinner. What the fuck! What about the first suap? Selamat ke tak? Aaaaaargh! I hope I won't get food poisoning. Alhamdulillah, nasib baik ada nasi ayam if not I really would've cried from the injustice. =__=

Now I have to start running through 50 plus pages of Fhizah's thesis in order to finish by next Thursday. AND I need to get up earlier tomorrow as preparation before the monthly meeting. Aaaaaargh~ The things I go through... *sigh*

Park Your Brain, Please

Got stuck outside Subway Kelana Jaya because the driver of an Iswaria didn't show up -_-

Displaying your handphone number in your parked vehicle requires you to ANSWER your calls, wouldn't it? At least be more attentive to the loud honking when you know you're blocking other people's car.

My boss even went up to the saloon which owned the parking lot (oops, illegal) to look for this person but got scolded instead.

After 30 minutes or so, a couple came out from... SUBWAY!! Oh of all the ironies.

I refrained from cursing in my 'Thank You' sms. The reply I got from the girlfriend was "Really sorry for the inconvenience..." (LIKE, WTF?!) Seriously, these kids need a whack.

Slow Thursday

Am shuffling all 30gb of Jrock but still feel bored to death. Yeah, slow day today.

Planning for the weekend doesn't help either. I don't even know what I wanna do other than sleep :P

Maybe I should follow up on Jess' suggestion to teman me to Amcorp Mall or Petaling Street. Although cough my pocket's pretty much empty already thanks to my brand new shiny iPod Touch. *lovingly rubs Tsuyo* Yes. I'm naming him Tsuyo xDD

Anyway. The office is (half) abuzz with Monday's Annual Company Dinner at Hilton. Except for that oh so clever decision by the bosses to have a 'Wear Something on top of Your Head' theme that's got me bothered. wth should I wear lah?? A headphone? A cap? *dusts out yellowish Kangta cap* This is like... the most decent cap I have pulak tu. Sheesh.

Right now I so wish I could own one of these Tsu4shi (read: Tsuyoshi) Ca4la berets =__=

No January Reviews

Now that I have Internet connection (again), why do I feel bored to death? I've got 3 books lying around in my room being left halfway unread. Why would I rather spend 15 minutes refreshing my FB News Feed to read updates? *bangs head against wall*

Not in the mood to review this month. =___= I'm fresh out of ideas eventhough the list of VK downloads I had thought of going through is fast piling up. Well technically it'll be February in 11 days so I'll have at least 2 weeks to get inspired. Someone inspire me, please!

I was thinking of writing an uplifting one for the Underneath's album from last year. Until they went and announced their breakup yesterday. Uhh so I dunno when I'd do it.

January is so boooring! :(

MAS gone ANA-L

Goodbye, JAL. Thank you for the fond memory (and delicious food). [October 2009]

Now that they've gulung their tikar, there's no longer a cheaper direct flight route to Japan. Apparently Kuala Lumpur is just not important enough for Japan's biggest carrier company, ANA, because we have been scrapped off their flight plan. Ciskek. Damn MAS for being so expensive. I sure as hell ain't gonna fly with them. Not unless ANA's Singapore route is way too exorbitant.

Sigh. Here's to hoping I am sturdy enough to save A LOT of money for our next trip in 2011.

I find myself dreaming more and more lately. My brain processing is probably going haywire. Must sleep early. Yes, must sleep early. Time is now 12:59 AM. Huh! Oh well, another 30 minutes would hardly affect my mental state, no? Mwahah.

Yara has just commanded me to stay awake. This time yet again, my slowpoke self just learned that he had been showing up regularly at Shokura with THEYbudou (KinKi's newest backdancers). OMFG! Apart from his solo dance performance, they've also re-choreographed KinKi's old songs! Absolute win. Rawr.

1. Jounetsu no Hitoyo - Shonentai sorry, can't embed here but daaayum is Yaracchi hawte or whut?

2. LOVESICK - KinKi Kids



3. Seppaku no Tsuki & Misty - KinKi Kids he should dance more with them, and not Kisumai -_-

Yara's singing has improved! *O*

MUST. DOWNLOAD. BWAHAHAHAHA.

Time now... 1:28 AM xD

[edit] Ooooh what's this I found? An old Music Jump clip with Yara. I feel Tonisen's awkwardness. Haha. Just look at how jambu Tackey, Tsubasa and Yara were x___x

Forecastism

Reading up (some more) about KinKi Kids' zodiac took up my working hours today. Oops. There goes productivity, down the drain... Whooosh!

My OTP doesn't allow me to work seriously anymore. Not after our trip to Japan. I have a feeling I might get sacked sooner or later for becoming despondent and for other nefarious reasons.

What a tortorous week. Can't the weekend come sooner? Speaking of weekends, Farah and I will be visiting JLa because she got admitted due to her recurring asthma. I didn't realise sooner from the FB posts so I'm very sorry, my madu! Will make it up to you this Sat. =)

Oh! Someone has finally uploaded forbidden days rhapsody's Canticum! But Sendspace is a bitch. I hate my connection right now. I'm sleepy. I'm whining so I should get this post over with by lamenting about how Yoshiki is ruining his band's image as a legend.

X Japan's "Made in Hollywood" four music videos is not so good news. For me. I dunno. Yoshiki just really suck nowadays with his broken promises, his obsession in trying to commercialise VK into the US market and the cancelled concerts. And him pulling in SUGIZO again and again is making me ill. Sugi-chan jumps from one project (Juno Reactor) to another project (this) TOO fast that his body would surely combust the next time he steps close to a nuclear reactor. Sorry, that was a pun due to his activist role. I know you don't get it but whatthehey. Anyhoo~ If Sugizo complains about being so tired but still works his skinny ass off 24/7 then he should just stop and rest, yes?

Ah damn, I ended up lamenting about Sugi =__=

*lies down to sleep*

Friggin' Making Me Poor

Oi. Oi. Oi. Enough with the barrage of information!

My heart is still struggling to recover from abs' sneak peek song off their new album. And then realising I'm a few days late to listen to SUGIZO's latest 2 digital singles caused a blow to my pride. Now SUGIZO's telling me to save up for yet another solo concert DVD. Okay so there's no official announcement of a release yet, but how else would he be earning his money??

Oh EFF all you rich old fogeys. Can't a girl enjoy the coming new decade with a lot of money in her pocket? You jusssst had to, huh? Grrrrrr.

At the moment I can foresee BIG $$$ loss in the year 2010:

1. abingdon boys school [Abingdon Road] - Jan 27


2. KinKi Kids J concert DVD - sometime during summer?


3. Middle East trip


4. Japan trip savings (for 2011)


5. Koichi BPM 2009 DVD


6. Sugi's DVD


7. Shinhwa? I doubt they'll have anything important but you never know.. huhuh


8. Starbucks coffee - thank you, addiction

Hmm. What else?

Anyhoo. Merry Christmas and happy holidays.

Inactive Lull

So many things happened: Japan, friends, kenduris, etc but I can't come up with something brilliant to update here.

Gomen. I seeeeriously need unlimited broadband to maintain this at home. Sigh.

Raya Cards

Lawa sangat plak aku buat e-greetings utk GSC nih =__=;;

*sends for approval*

I'm tired of making a lot of versions due to cough komen membina cough so this time around I'm gonna do it right and all purty!

You can see em up at the site oh in about 2 weeks or so.

Pissy

My downloads aren't working, this computer chugs like a steamengine, Firefox is being a bitch, Farm Town is loading so friggin' slow tonight and I can't even get episode 4 of True Blood to load!

So when one of my old random schoolmate tries to sidle up to me and ask stuff I consider personal about my coming Japan trip without a simple introductory "Hello, how have you been?" or "Hi, long time no see"... I'm going to be all pissy and rude with her regardless of whether it's Ramadhan or not.

Isn't it annoying when someone, whom you aren't even chummy with during highschool in the first place, messages you out of the blue thinking you'd be all friendly now? Er hello? Do you even know me that well?

Have the decency to warm up to me first please. Then and only then you may cut to the chase and ask me who I'm going with and if you 'know' these friends of mine. Pffft.

It's like an indirect breach into your personal space wtf. And I LOVE my wall-high-1m-wide No Entry Zone which is exclusive only to people I care about.

Sounding pushy and vague, I can't even tell if she's merely making a bad start of a cordial conversation or she seriously wants to join me and my friends. But I'd like to keep this trip 'VIP Only', thank you. What makes you think I'd let you jump on the bandwagon we've worked so hard to build, huh?

Just the other day I told my twinnie on how I deal with friends I've lost contact with. But this is an exception, k? Our conversations were like so few that I doubt it could reach 1 hour totalled up.

Ah Long Cometh

I hate PTPTN.

They sent a nonsensical letter telling me since I haven't paid my debt for months there is a 'tunggakan' and therefore I am required to pay the outstanding amount within 'EMPAT BELAS (14) HARI' from the day this said letter was printed.

It was dated 24 July 2009.

I received it yesterday, 4 August 2009.

Tell me, should I blast their hotline and spill whatever swearword I could come up with at their stupendously idiotic system?

F***! There isn't even an indicator in the letter nor the system (E-FES) which states what the bloody hell that 'tunggakan' is for. I just paid a rough figure that is close to the amount of my 'Kos Pentadbiran Terkumpul'.

Just So You Know

1. Luna Sea 2. Shinhwa 3. KinKi Kids 4. Sugizo 5. Rentrer en Soi 6. MUCC 7. Pierrot 8. abingdon boys school 9. SID 10. V6 11. hide 12. Kagrra, 13. the GazettE 14. Dir en grey 15. Acid Black Cherry 16. Duel Jewel 17. D'espairsRay 18. Inoran 19. Park Hyo Shin 20. Versailles 21. Matenrou Opera 22. 12012 23. Jinkaku Radio 24. X Japan 25. NoGod 26. ExistTrace 27. DangerGang

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Love is immeasureable. But can be ranked by importance, yes?

This is roughly my favourites. Together with whom I assume to be in future. Since I realised not many of my friends are 100% sure of who I like and prefer. I've been vague after all, gomen ne.

Comments:
- #6 and #14 have both excellently matured.
- #9 and #20 are by far the closest to a budding interest.
- I'm expecting #13's DIM to be strong yet nothing new from them has surpassed NIL yet so... I say 'Grow Up!' or get flamed.
- #8, #15 and #17 latest releases are a bit stale but their skills are intact. boleh dimaafkan.
- #24 is here not because of their comeback or Yoshiki, but because they gifted the world with #1 and #14.
- due to my fickleness, the bottom half may change positions or get replaced without notice.
- the top 15 will remain. unless #13 & #15 goes against my expectations. tsk tsk.
- #19 is in the list cos I'm reluctant to let him go. heh.

For some reason I can't explain, I feel ridiculous that I don't have a favourite VK band or band member from this decade. If you ask me what I listen to these days, I'd gladly rattle off a few names but oh please PLEASE don't ask me what I liked 6 months ago coz I won't remember. The truth hurts when you get older. Hahah.

The last fandom I was sucked into was short-lived: Rentrer en Soi disbanded in 2007 then Satsuki, whom has the absolute best vocal I've listened to in YEARS, went and started his awaited solo career -- but it sucked. Really.

So after Rentrer, not one single band has kept my attention for more than a month (ouch, so harsh!). It's hard to hold onto one when I keep comparing everyone to Luna Sea and Rentrer... *slaps self*

More or less how I compare Shinhwa with other Kpop groups. But then Shinhwa IS the best so this is pointless.

Anyway, I no longer bother to collect scans, download lives or concerts which would eventually lead me to target any guy or 'guy' if you prefer that kind.

Besides, these younger Jrockers look TOO typically pretty that I can't differentiate this face from another when instead they should be focusing on real talent, real skills and making real music! They... um... I'll... stop bashing already =__=

ps: Tagging this post is horrendous work *howls* I'll keep it short and sweet.

Major Pain!

I blame my lazy creaking body for allowing to be tortured by that dang masseuse guy at that dang shop in JB Sutra Mall. *rubs bruised back*

When yesterday's urut session was over, I was sooo relieved (cos I've wanted a massage since last year, ya know) until um 30 minutes after I got onto the bus back to KL. Adoi. Pain. Paaaainful I tell you!

No amount of 'mind over matter' will be able to persuade me to go for another foot/back massage there. SAKIT giler weh! Well, unless ada org nk belanja... then can. :P

Anyhoo~ What a tiring weekend. *cough* Not like I did much during the kenduri pun. But please like oh my goodness, stop telling me to eat so much food! Mak Tok's kuah kacang campur durian (which I had 10 helpings of *gasp*), kuah durian with pulut, Pak Long's serunding, the durians from all over Johor and then Mak's cooking spells disaster for my low blood pressure.

Thank God I didn't gain weight. Ugh.

Must. Not. Eat. Lunch. And. Dinner. For a week.

ps: A lot of people assume I'd follow after my Dad's craze for the fruit and kept giving me sympathetic stares when I declined after just 3 ulas. Gile ke hape?