Cascade

If only I could blame the kopi ais I had for lunch as the reason of my fucked up life.

Coffee kills my braincells, leaves me mentally imbalanced and physiologically burnt out. It sometimes causes me to become emotionally unstable (albeit agitated) where I could either turn hyper or spiral downwards into surliness.

I was already a tad moody because most of my work was still not settled. Then the bloody stuff wasn't doing what I wanted it to do (GRRR!!). I know it was obvious how it looked like I was ignoring him, eventhough I couldn't really process my thoughts properly when I'm an emotional wreck. Of course, I'm always skittish around him. But...

When it happened, I couldn't fathom his reaction much less his feelings to what I did. I just somehow felt how my callousness severed the invisible thread between us. That was when my system totally crashed down. Could barely think rationally after that.

Yeah, this is probably one of those rare days when I feel very bad for being a stuck-up bitch. But even so... Why do I care? Why? Why do you affect me so? How did you manage to get under my skin that quick?