Unsent Fan Letter

Dear KinKi-san,

You two occupy too much of my time. I've got 3 dramas pending but you just won't leave me alone, huh? I've got loads of work with a tight deadline but you just won't let me be, eh?

Not having a life will fuel an indecent obsession to not do any work at home and spend the whole night (and weekends) watching the same KinKi videos over and over again.

Not having Internet access at home will fuel an unholier obsession to repeat the same Domoto Kyodai episode over and over again for the past 7 days. This episode being the one where you, Tsuyo-san, introduced your 'toilet', Kochan, to us.

However! Occupying too much of my time, my mind and my heart will fuel a greedy obsession to showcase Winamp skins in order to be accepted as a 'generous' fan eventhough I know they're not the prettiest of my creations.



So I blame you both if I get flamed for such lousy skins. Which, by the way are entitled Basic (in red, white and black) and Koichi's Hope.

Yours (and Dongwans's) truly,
Hmspstr

All About the Money

If only that lump of bucks I got in my sleep would materialise into my hand right now. RM3K. CASH. *has sweet brief flashes of the dream*

NOT a good way to wake up, no? My first thought as I woke was how this lucid dream is so going to be a bad omen. And hey, I just knew it!

Got lumped (not with moneyh!) with so many ad hoc jobs that I swore my brain was on auto must-finish-each-item-in-30-mins mode. Which is... good, I suppose, considering I managed to clear 'em up pretty fast so I wouldn't be at the end of the Scary Lady's jabs yet again.

I'm babbling! :S

Anyway, abingdon boys school's new single is out! LIKE, FINALLY. Sounds awesomely better than their previous idontevenrememberthetitle single. This is probably the only nicest thing to come out of Jrock-dom this week :D Well, minus Diru's latest concert vids.

*Totally ignores SUGIZO's 'announcement' of officially joining X JAPAN*

Jrock's been chugging slower these days. Why lar?

Thank you KinKi-san for being here when I need you~

Oh and thank you Farah for ranting/spazzing on MSN and Mish for loyally reading my pathetic blog.

Bidding Time

Japanese Yen is rising from The Slump. Damn. There goes my spending money. I just hope I can afford that 500¥ kasa which I promised Aishah. At this rate I don't think I can even eat Takoyaki. Boo!

Eh how much is pan at Disneyland anyway... Pray tell that they won't only be selling friggin expensive boulangerie bread? Boohoohoo.

*tightens belt* Am seriously on a sliiiiim budget now that my brothers decide to get hitched in this same year. That makes 3 weddings, no, 4 weddings (including Aish's). Crazy kah?!

So if one my good friends decide to hold theirs now, sorry lah ye. I've already apologised to Wate (Congrats btw) since hers will be on the same day as my stepbro's in Gemas. ^^;;

Anyhoo~ no purchases til after October I suppose. Even so... I'd still be saving up for Dubai by then. Aiiiyoooh.

I feel bad for not buying any KinKi albums. T___T I just look in envy at other people spending on YesAsia and CDJapan nowadays.

No time, no money, no Internet. Sigh. Oh heck, NO LIFE!

Am I Happy?

I seriously don't know. I'm never vocal about issues that concern too many factions. Keeping all this bottled emotions is really taking a toll on my body. *pokes aching body parts*

In fact, I can't even define those so called 'emotions'.

In Tiger & Dragon, the Rakugo shishou mentions that people should put up a smiling face even when they're sad or angry or just plain down-and-out because it affects other people's emotions too. Because we're supposed to be sensitive towards other people's feelings yadda yadda yadda.

An altruistic method although you suffer all by yourself =__=

But I'm not cut out for that BS.

These unhappy issues comes across as a pretty constant ritual until I don't even know when I'm happy and when I'm not. I can't even pinpoint anything.

And so I just keep trudging along to wherever the days take me.

What a bitter reminder to remind myself that I don't even understand my own life.

When Kochan Met Tsuyo

5th May 1993. Koichi and Tsuyoshi 'officially' met each other at their daisempai Hikaru Genji's concert. And the love is still burning between them *hugs the happily married couple*

Thank you, Johnny-san for handpicking these two boys and grooming them into fine men.

Happy 17th Anniversary, KinKi-san! I shall celebrate by re-re-watching Toma's hilarious SDK episode.