Am I Happy?

I seriously don't know. I'm never vocal about issues that concern too many factions. Keeping all this bottled emotions is really taking a toll on my body. *pokes aching body parts*

In fact, I can't even define those so called 'emotions'.

In Tiger & Dragon, the Rakugo shishou mentions that people should put up a smiling face even when they're sad or angry or just plain down-and-out because it affects other people's emotions too. Because we're supposed to be sensitive towards other people's feelings yadda yadda yadda.

An altruistic method although you suffer all by yourself =__=

But I'm not cut out for that BS.

These unhappy issues comes across as a pretty constant ritual until I don't even know when I'm happy and when I'm not. I can't even pinpoint anything.

And so I just keep trudging along to wherever the days take me.

What a bitter reminder to remind myself that I don't even understand my own life.